What a day

Today was a trying day for me. I am feeling so much stress of doing everything by myself for this last week. I am so worn out and tired from never getting a break from the kids. The house is a mess, which I do and don't care about. I care because I really hate things not being neat and tidy, but I don't care because as soon as I clean something it seems like within an hour it looks just like it did before. I swear the kids are so messy and into everything. I just don't understand other women who seem to have it all together and you go to their homes and they have young children and everything is neat and clean and their children are behaving. My kids on the other hand are launching themselves off of the couch, tearing the wallpaper off of the wall, throwing food everywhere...etc. We saw Aaron for only about an hour today. He slept until 1 and then had to shower and be off by 2. He came home for lunch and stayed for about an hour. I cried and cried when he left. I don't know what I am going to do when residency comes. I need to become strong somehow but I don't know where to start.

On a happier note we did do some fun things today. When the kids woke up they both played in Violet's crib and stuck their little toes and fingers out for me to kiss. They thought that was great fun. We mulled around the house for a bit and then it dawned on me that it was a gorgeous day and we should get some fresh air. I went and got all the yard toys out and we had a ball in the backyard. It was pick up day for the trash and the truck came by and Asher was enthralled to say the least. He stood right at the fence and just watched in amazment. The truck driver even honked and waved. What a treat for Asher, he is such a boy's boy. Violet was just content with getting in and out of the play car and going up and down the steps. (That girl and steps, my word!) I scrapped a bit this afternoon. Misty Mareda came out with this darling kit called "Curiosity" that is just perfect for Asher. I used it to scrap this page about when we first moved here and went to the St. Louis airshow.:

Other credits are:
Nancy Comelab:
"On the Edge" template
Meredith Fenwick:
"Digi Supply Closet-paint strokes"
"Sitichorama-zigag"
Jenn Patrick:
"Backwards Staple" (These freaking RULE!!!)
Traci Murphy:
Drop Shadows
Font is 1942 report

I also started scrapping a page about when I used to nurse Asher and he would fall asleep during it and his cute little body sitting up while I would burp him. Oh seeing that photo makes my heart ache. I miss him being my little baby. I will post it when it is all finished. I applied last night for a position on Lauren Grier's creative team. That would be so wonderful, I love her style. I will hear back in a couple weeks for the decision. Well I am pooped and need some sleep badly, so until tomorrow.